So I wrote an entire blog post and then accidentally deleted it instead of posting it. Because that is the level of brain engagement I am currently functioning at. This last weekend/morning have been a little strange. I've been feeling a bit off. Not necessarily bad. Just not quite right. I think a lot of this has to do with the fact that everything right now seems in flux, and like it isn't supposed to be. People keep asking me how school is going, and I keep replying in the same way. "Great! Everything is going great!" (cue overly enthusiastic thumbs up and smile). And it's true. If you were to objectively look at it, things are going pretty great.
I'm about to finish my Master's. I got accepted to a good PhD program for the fall with funding. I like both of my classes and professors this semester. I have research topics and a plan for the research on my final papers. I am, for the most part, caught up on my teaching. Everything seems to be going well. I can't complain.
The only problem is, none of it is finished. It's a lot of in-progress kind of stuff. The Master's degree, while virtually a given at this point (I would have to go brain dead to not pass this semester) is still a month away. I have stuff to do before then in order to earn the degree. The PhD program is another to-do list of things that need to get completed. Exciting, lovely things that I am looking forward to, but really the acceptance letter is as much another task as it is an accomplishment. And as for this semester, everything is in the progress stage. I have topics. Great. Lovely. That has yet to translate into "I have a draft." That needs to happen. Soon. The problem is not so much that I'm not being productive. Stuff is getting done. It is more that all of the projects are long-term things. They take time. So while everything is "great" everything is also "unfinished." And that can get a bit frustrating as the days continue to fly by.
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